November 15, 2011

Indescribable Love

Me and my grandson. So in love...
When I first found out, I was concerned about what I'd be called. People tried to tell me it wouldn't matter when the time came and I don't know if I quite knew what they meant... But now I do.

Gabriel Michael Ortego has made me a grandmother. He was born this past Friday night. Yes on 11/11/11 at 3:01 am weighing 8 lbs 7 oz and 23 inches long.

I guess he'll call me Mimi. But he can call me whatever he wants because I love him. I just want to get this down and out there while the emotions are high but although he isn't even a week old and I've only held him once, I love that baby more than life itself. I would lay down my life for him, no questions asked. Gabriel cannot yet speak, show me love, do anything for me. Heck, he can't do anything much at all right now but eat and cry and make dirty diapers. He's totally helpless and dependent. So why do I love him so much already? How can this be? Just because. He's my grandson. Just like I love his beautiful mother and each of my children. Just because. They are mine. And just like that, I begin to sort of understand Jesus' unexplainable love for us. He loves us... just because. He did give His life for us and He longs every day to be with us. He doesn't 'need' us and we can't really do one thing of ourselves to even come before Him... But He paid the highest price, because we were priceless to Him. He made a way because He loves us. I think I am kind of getting it now.

We love Gabe. The love on Haley and Josh's faces for their baby is just beyond beautiful to me. I love watching them with him almost as much as I love to watch him. Its like a whole new layer has been pulled back off of my heart and I feel love at a new, raw, holy level.  He's absolutely priceless to his parents and to each of us who are blessed to be a part of his family. Our lives have each been forever changed by this tiny little soul that my beautiful daughter and son-in-law blessed the world with.

There's much more that I haven't found expression for and more details about his birth which I promise will come at a later date. But right now I am almost speechless. Hard to fathom I know :). And if you haven't been there yet, I'll tell you like they told me...one day you will understand. But you probably won't be able to explain the emotions any better than I just have :). It's indescribable.

So here's some pictures of our precious  baby boy. You gotta admit... he's pretty dang cute! :D
Gabe and Mommy

I will still and quiet my soul like a well fed child with his mother.

Bright eyes

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

So beautiful,Sis....making me cry before my 2nd cup of coffee this morning. : )

Anonymous said...

Totally get it. Well written babe. I feel the same way about him and am just so proud of his Mom and Dad. They have been awesome thoughout. They are going to be wonderful parents. It is quite something to see the next generation of your flesh and blood begin. We are blessed! Keith

Anonymous said...

It was sorta different for me 'cause you two daughters birthed my grandbabies all over the world. Very little hands-on for me at the git-go, unfortunately. I think that's why I love my grands so much now. I'm still tryin' to catch up! :-)Dad

Kayla said...

Thanks everyone :). Well they all adore their Papaw :). Distance hasn't made a difference in that...

Anonymous said...

That was a beautiful "musing", thanks!